Mangled Tapes
Sunday 26 March 2023
The Movement Of 26th March
Friday 26 August 2022
The Kindest Lie
And yet the music is ok. That’s the MT45 chugging away as drums, there’s some hopeless lead guitar (played at the same time as the lead vocal was recorded, I think, hence the sudden changes in volume). And there’s the first appearance of the influence of Colin Newman – I was listening to “Provisionally entitled the singing fish” / “Not to” and the CN1 CD single all the time and the title was stolen from the refrain at the end of “You me and happy” from “Not to”. I wish I’d gone for the helicopter lyric.
Saturday 20 July 2019
Robert Morgan Learns To Dance
Of course if you've read any of the numerous blog posts over at A Goldfish Called Regret you'll know Xmas 83 was all about crushing on someone, receiving great albums by Eno, Kraftwerk, Tangerine Dream and Freur, and pissing around with the Casio. It just inspired me to play. I had no music training at all...actually I'd had two years of music lessons in school but none of the theory we learnt was related to music we heard so it made no sense. My dad showed me how to make a chord as a triad of notes and that was it. Off I went, chugging out tunes. I must have driven my family mad. Same old tunes chugging away. Admittedly I usually kept my headphones on, and there was more noise generated by my brother with his new electric guitar and 50 watt amp. Indeed on listening closely to some of these recordings i can hear my brother bashing out riffs in the background, the noise filtering through my bedroom wall.
Time passed slowly. My crush moved on, I started another crush and at no point did I think "Hey this may be something I could write a song about". I'd written poems in English and had written songs in my head for my imaginary band Scrabble, but never thought of writing songs with lyrics. There were exceptions and we will discuss this in time. But for months I just churned out instrumentals. Maybe I was gearing up for the big reveal.
The first actual song with lyrics turned out to be "The way we were", written on a cross channel ferry to France in the summer of 1984. Nothing much happened then until autumn 1984 brought it's own misery of unrequited crushes, threats of violence from boyfriend of unrequited crushes, diaries being read in school and being seen as a swot who won competitions for the school and got his photo in the local paper. Read all about that on Goldfish.
Out of that turmoil came "Embarrassing Situation". Written directly to my crush, it was given to her by a friend, and she walked up to me and ripped the lyrics up and threw the shreds of paper over me. After that songs just started flowing. Not all of them were about her, but some were and everyone assumed all my songs were about her even if they weren't. I recorded three songs onto a tape which was played in a German lesson while I banged on the door begging them to stop playing it. My crush hated me even more then, especially as the rest of the class were raving about how I was the new Howard Jones. 1984, you know.
So at some point in the Autumn of that year I started recording my compositions. Not sure why I decided to use a Prinz Professional C90. I'm pretty sure I bought the tape from Bessemer Road Sunday market. Of course my recording methods were pretty crap, Cherry Close wasn't Abbey Road. I didn't even borrow my brother's guitar cable. My JVC tape deck had two mics and I stuck them on the Casio's speaker. So more often than not you will hear me breathing, changing buttons on the keyboard and actually pressing the keys down. There are sections of the tape where I'm basically playing these songs straight after each other live to tape and I can hear me switching settings on the keyboard in the gaps. Most of these have been edited out.
Meanwhile a public health warning
CAVEAT EMPTOR!
This is badly recorded shit. Do not expect high quality sounds. It's mainly one keyboard. The tunes are sometimes catchy but go on way too long. Seriously, I do not expect anyone to listen to this more than once. Less than once is more likely. I will not be offended if you jump forward through most of these songs. I would. I have.
I may not have anything interesting to say about each of the songs
Side One
"Introduction"
A nice little tune. Electric piano preset. C major seventh.
"Slight instrumental 1"
Slight is right. It's a couple of chords. Do I know what I'm doing ? Hell no.
"Forget-me-knot"
This is the second song I wrote in December 83, all major chords in all the wrong places (F, E, D into B, G, E) and the waltz setting. Somehow something so wrong sounds so right. Absolutely no idea why this isn't mentioned on the sleeve. I can't remember what the actual title is of this song so I've named it today.
"Timing and precision"
The first song I wrote on the Casio. Goes on for about 90 seconds too long. I would find out two years after writing this that I had unknowingly ripped off "Stratosfear" by Tangerine Dream. Cute.
"Event"
Another tune I had knocking around and played all the time. Goes on too long and it's only 3 minutes long.
"Transit"
Another classic. I quite like this and since playing the tape last week it has been buzzing around my head constantly. On the other hand it's 8 minutes long. There's no overdubs, just straight Casio MT45. It's like a Casio demo tape. I've yet to learn how to edit myself. (Looks at notes) Still true 8-)
"Music to relax on a beach to"
Some of these titles were made up on the spot when I typed up the sleeve. This was a samba rhythm I think. Another oft-played classic. A change of pace I suppose.
"Electricity"
My first vocal on the tape. Oh God. Yes it's the OMD song. Yes it's terrible. It's not in my key and I had yet to work out how to transpose to another key. Horrible. Oh dear.
"Slight instrumental 2"
This is rather sweet. It's also short. I love it to be honest. Would work well as an ident for a radio station or something.
"Verpassen 1" / "Verpassen 2"
Fucked if I can remember what Verpassen means. (Quick Google). Oh "to miss", like missing a train. First and only appearance on the tape of my Oric. So at last stereo - I had stereo mics so one mic went under the Oric, the other went on the Casio speaker. Whatever. Part One has the Oric playing a four note arpeggio like a demented Tangerine Dream, and I improvise over the top with the Casio. Sometimes quite accidentally it turns into an odd Philip Glass Terry Riley moment of greatness. You can hear me make changes on the Oric by pressing keys on it to raise the octave. Goes on too long. Then the Oric does its "Explode" noise and we're into Part 2, Oric repeating a chord and again me improvising over it. Goes on too long.
"Whatever happened to timing and precision?"
Now I've discovered how to overdub that's it now, I'm off! This is pure shit. Do not listen to it. In fact the best part is right at the start with just the drum machine where the attentive listener can hear my brother playing power chords from his bedroom next door.
"My world"
Yes, you know this one. This turned into "Monday will never be the same" on "Presence and Proximity" ten years later. And yes back in the 80s there was a lyric. No you're not hearing it.
"Technical fault"
This is what happened when I caused feedback on my JVC tape deck. The VU meters went nuts. And I plunk guitar strings. Avant Garde.
"Mixed up all wrong"
First appearance of my brother's guitar. Two overdubs, the guitar as bass, second guitar as "I don't know how to play a chord" and I think I'm playing the Casio at the same time as I'm strumming.
"And so onwards"
Recorded on 28th December 1984. How do I know? Cos that's when I bought my Casio VL-tone. New sounds! The chance to programme in melody or sequence, an ADSR lead sound... Fucking hell I thought this was it. And as if to prove it, the VL-tone bass sound here is absolutely immense! This is really cute and I'm still fond of it.
End of side one
Pause to turn over tape
Side two
"Statues"
Yes THAT "Statues". Already established by 1985 as my favourite song ever, it's the heartbreaking OMD song. And I substitute all that gorgeousness with a Casio. At least the vocal is subdued.
"Neither either way"
A genuine Scrabble song. At least the idea of it was. The initial first minute or so. Then I just drive the ideas (which are pretty shit) into the ground. Too bloody long.
"Fall from grace"
Cute. Three minutes too long.
"Lovesick"
And AT LAST the actual songs start. I have a notion that I wrote "Lovesick" after hearing "Sleepless" by Microdisney on Peel in late 83 and in my head I can hear it. It's a song with lyrics and an actual melody and I rerecorded it in 1989 (where's the fucking tape of that, eh?) and Final Ecstasy played it in 1987 when I wasn't singing, and this recording doesn't do it justice. I programmed the melody into the VL-tone then played it with the step buttons which is why it's so stilted. Live recording of music, overdub of quiet vocal. Not about anyone. I should rerecord this properly. Second verse is shite.
"The way we were"
Written on the first day of a holiday to France on Bastille Day 1984. Not about anyone. I always played this on the tango setting, not sure why I recorded it like this. Goes on too long. Also I don't remember the third verse at all.
"Fond regards to the bitter end"
Great title, Rob. Not about anyone but as I said, everyone assumed these songs were about my crush. They weren't. I quite like this one, though it's a bit bitchy.
"Haywire"
The first alarm bells should have sounded here. Am I describing myself? There's hints of truth here, but the final verse is just stupid. Shame. Stupid end too. I sound like Vini Reilly.
"Distress signals"
This should have been "The happy couple", a bitchy song about my crush and her boyfriend. Only she found out I was recording my songs and basically threatened to have her boyfriend beat me up if I recorded any songs about her. So bye bye "The happy couple" and instead "Distress signals", a song about drowning and nobody noticing. METAPHOR ALERT! Again a piss poor third verse. Could I not write third verses? (Cue for Paul K to shout "Or middle eights!") Of course the original lyrics are lost in time somewhere. I quite like this one too.
"Western Avenue"
A hymn to the M4. In terms of music and melody, probably the best song on the tape. At some point I just list places on the M4. "Route 66" or "Autobahn" this is not. The music would be adapted in 1991 to become "Leave me alone", which was then rerecorded in 1993 for "It doesn't matter", the master tape of which was thrown away by my wife around 2001. Shame, it was great.
"Talk to me"
Actually this is about someone. Whether it's about my crush.... Maybe maybe not. Still, sounds pretty heartfelt. Catchy.
"Distance fades between us"
Definitely not the OMD song of the same name. This was "Embarrassing Situation", which always made me think of the Magic Roundabout for some reason.I changed the lyrics but this time I kept the originals somewhere,cos I recorded "Embarrassing Situation" in 1991. Worst lyric here, utter nonsense.
"Oriental"
And then the songs stop, and I realise I've still got more tape to fill up. This is a shite instrumental with messy overdubs and shit.
"Untitled"
Shit I've still got tape to fill up. So here's a pure improvisation. It's shit. Don't bother.
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So that was "Robert Morgan Learns To Dance", a title I made up on the spot. It was IBM T1 - Industrial Beat Music was my tape label and there would be more.
Thursday 8 February 2018
Songs for TracyK
The esteemed @Perlalaloca is carrying out a long term scheme on Twitter called #TheMixtapeProject where each week a different individual contributes a playlist on Spotify like an old fashioned compilation tape – an imaginary C90 of music for someone else to listen to. This playlist will go public on Sunday nights, shared by Tracy and others, and folks can listen to it and comment on what they enjoyed and didn’t enjoy.
And I’m contributing the playlist for week 5.
But you know me, I like the sound of my own words and have too much to say for myself, so I offered to write some sleeve notes for this playlist, partly to explain my choices and partly as something to do which may well kickstart my writing after a fallow period.
So here we go....
Side one (yes it’s meant to be a proper compilation tape with two sides)
“Fanfare” – Eric Matthews (from “It’s heavy in here” LP, 1995)
Every mix should start with a fanfare of trumpets, and what better way than this? Eric Matthews appeared in the mid 90s, firstly as part of Cardinal with Richard Davies, and then solo – this was his first solo single, issued by Sub Pop in 1995. I think my 7” was on clear vinyl. Eric’s second album “The lateness of the hour” is end to end brilliant, and is well worth checking out.
“Count it up” – Field Music (from “Open here” LP, 2018)
I’ve only heard one Field Music album before their new one, but “Open here” is great and is highly recommended. Under normal circumstances I would include the closing song which I had on repeat recently and which moved me to tears, but this is just an instant pop song, but with a lot of bite in the lyrics department.
“Remove for improvement” – Colin Newman (From “Not to” album, 1982)
Of course Colin Newman is the lead singer in Wire, but it was good to see his early 80s solo material reissued last year, and getting a lot of love too. There’s plenty of Wire offcuts on these albums, and “Remove for improvement” is one such song, rehearsed in 1979 but not recorded properly at the time. It’s one of the highlights of Newman's career, a song which sounds so simple but builds with more interlocking guitar parts as it progresses.
“My denial in Argyle” – Woodpigeon (from “Die Stadt Musikaten”, 2011)
Isn’t it great when you walk into a record shop, hear them playing a great song and walk up to the counter and say “I want to buy what’s playing”. That was how I discovered Woodpigeon, in Diverse Records in Newport, Summer ’09. That song was “Cities of weather”, from their second album, but this is from their third album a year or so later. Why? Why not. It’s a great song and is about as rocking as they get.
“Goodbye it’s 1987” - Microdisney (from “The clock comes down the stairs” LP, 1985)
I’m not one for band reunions, but Microdisney reforming to play “The clock comes down the stairs” is good news. It’s an album which hasn’t aged a jot, it seems the mid 80s world of Tory ruination is just as relevant in 2018 – who’d have thought it? “Let’s tax the wages of sin” indeed. I could have picked any song from the album but this fits nicely with the next song.
“Suspicious Minds” – Elvis Presley (from “From Elvis in Memphis” album, 1969)
When I was young my three major musical loves were The Beatles, Elvis Presley and the Wombles. There was a time all three acts were on this playlist. Why is this here? Because it’s Elvis at his very best. One of my first memories of this song is seeing a promo film for it involving Elvis in prison. On the other hand, there is no promo film for this song. So I probably dreamt it. Just ignore me, ok?
“Stained glass” - Real Estate (from “In mind” LP, 2017)
I came to Real Estate via Rob’s Alphabet Of Indie, which goes to show I do listen to everything suggested. That was “Had to hear”, and not long after that they issued their most recent album “In mind” and I listened to little else for about a month. It’s just perfect guitar pop, and the songs are mostly hopefully treaties on love and belonging. And to those people who say there’s no such thing as perfect pop, it’s all subjective.
“Off your face” – My Bloody Valentine (from “Glider” EP, 1990)
As I’ve said many times, an album of MBV songs which sounds like this would shit all over “Loveless”. There’s so much going on here. Those swooping guitars! The bass which is all over the place! The words! The chaos of guitars fighting in the background. And once the singing stops it just keeps on fucking going and those swooping guitars play in the air like courting doves. Sublime.
“King’s Lead Hat” - Brian Eno (from “Before and after science”, 1977)
Jesus, I’ve been listening to this song for 35 years now and I still get something new from it. Eno does punk as a tribute to Talking Heads, and it makes no sense but works anyway. How have I never noticed how the bass is slightly late to every bar?
“Now is now” – Band Of Susans (from “Now!” mini LP, 1992)
As I write this sleeve note I’m also writing a Toppermost on Band Of Susans, how they were brilliant, how they should be revered alongside Sonic Youth and other Blast First bands for their carefully built wall of guitars, but nobody noticed them then and even less so now. Hell, I missed them at the time, what do I know? And also what I’m saying is that underneath the wall of guitar noise they could write great melodies and songs too. Which is why this is here. I always wanted my band to cover this song, I reckon we could have done it proud.
“She floated away” – Husker Du (from “Warehouse : Songs and Stories” LP, 1987)
I’m not the sort of person to say “go read my blog” but frankly the best way to understand how important “Warehouse” is to me is to read my blog post on Goldfish about it. Also, the bottom end of this sucks in relation to the previous songs, someone somewhere must be remastering the Husker Du catalogue to give it some balls. “A man has two reasons for things that he does, the first one is pride and the second one is love” True, that.
Side two
“Tilting at windmills” – The Field Mice (from “For keeps” LP, 1991)
If side one was fast and (relatively) happy, side two is slower and more melancholy. Which is a good place to bring in the Field Mice, who really are one of the most important bands ever for me. This isn’t one of their lyrical odes of loves lost and won and misunderstood, this is an atmospheric instrumental which fits perfectly for the purpose. Dreamy.
“High flying bird” – Moose (from “...XYZ” LP, 1992)
From the “Be my baby” drumbeat onwards, this is sublime. A hazy shade of autumn, so many memories here, I may just end up saying nothing useful about side two because it’s songs with memories and prickling eyes and ice shivers down the spine.
“Transistor” - Kraftwerk (from “Radio Activity” LP, 1975)
A short and bittersweet interlude. Crossing the Severn Bridge at night, after a long journey from France, dozing off but nearly home and happy and sad too that it’s all over. I was 14, ok? Not falling asleep at the wheel....
“I believe in you” – Talk Talk (from “Spirit of Eden”, 1988)
Late night buses, later nights alone in bed, headphones on, picking up the details, working out what the hell was going on with this album. So human, some mistakes are meant to be recorded. And then the choir comes in like sunlight through stained glass and illuminates the emotions.
“I feel like going home” - Yo La Tengo (from “I am not afraid of you and I will beat your ass” LP, 2006)
Standing outside a call centre at 9pm and walking around in a teary eyed daze. Thinking I was right when I was utterly wrong. And that chord change on the word "alone".. “Running from the voices filling up my brain”.
“Luftschloss” – Eno / Moebius / Roedelius (from “After the heat” LP, 1978)
Cutting a hedge on a stepladder and almost falling off when this came on. Thank God I don’t have to do that any more.
“I was just dreaming” – The Orchids (b side to “Tharmaturgy” single, 1992)
“Do you know what I mean?” she whispered to me.... in the right / wrong mood this is the greatest song in the world. The Orchids are one of the greatest bands in the world. Every line strikes a chord with me. “And you know she almost smiled?”
“Country rain” - Slowdive (from “In mind” EP, 1993)
I sometimes feel that I romanticise the past too much, but bloody hell the 1992 to 1994 period of my life was filled with wonderful music and crushing on completely the wrong person(s) in such a devoted way that the two things are completely entwined. “And I wish you were mine”.
“All that love and maths can do” - The Durutti Column (b side to “Tomorrow” single, 1986)
One of my three favourite pieces of music ever. 21st March 1986. Still clear in my head every time I hear the song. Tears? Oh hell yes. Every time.
“Between two points” – The Montgolfier Brothers (from “Seventeen stars” LP, 2000)
Your guardian angel gives up the ghost.
“The great dominions” – The Teardrop Explodes (from “Wilder” LP, 1981)
One of the greatest album closers ever, from one of the greatest albums ever. And I guess a bit of hope after so much despair in the past. Sorry if I’ve gone on a bit and it’s not made sense. It’s just what music does to me, I can’t express myself very well under normal circumstances (partly my ASD and partly just me but mostly it's the ASD) so I get emotions and emotional through music, it’s why music means so much to me, a way to unlock emotions, a way forward to understanding other people, and maybe making a little bit of sense of my world. Music is important. I hope it is to you too. These are some of my favourite songs, I hope you have enjoyed them, even if you don’t have the memories I have. Thank you for listening and thank you to Tracy for asking me to do this and thank you for indulging me. Thank you and God bless.
Thursday 20 October 2016
Mangled Tapes - an introduction
So I finally found a tape deck which works so I can now hook it up to a computer and start to digitally transfer my old tapes of my songs recorded between 1985 and 1994 for your pleasure or punishment. Some of my old tapes are already on Soundcloud and have been written about on the main blog (thats A Goldfish Called Regret) but I may well transfer them over here. This isn't going to be comprehensive, there are tapes missing or just not located yet but I'll do what I can. You can download them, listen to them once and delete them as far as I'm concerned. This means more to me than you, but that's to be expected. But there you go, a big chunk of my past. I'll write sleeve notes which might put the songs into context. All tape hiss is entirely necessary, no tarting up will be performed on the tapes. This is raw Rob Morgan. Enjoy!